On My Mind.

I have come to a conclusion of sorts.

The universe is massive.

Bigger then our comprehension.

It gets bigger every nanosecond.

It won't stop getting bigger for a long time.

Its ordered.

So far as we know, everything in the universe follows rules of cause and effect. everything can be explained. everything is orderly. and happens. for what purpose, we do not know.

maybe its because its simply an effect from an old cause thats trickling down to infinatesimally small levels...

maybe its all an accident and the universe is the product of an arrant cause that should never have occured.

People say all things happen for a reason.

Maybe they do. But i think its not because of some destiny, but rather because of some anomaly.

To whatever extent, we, as humans are like atoms, no smaller, quarks to the structure of the universe.

Our existance is meaningless to the cosmos. Negligable. In fact, most things at all are negligable to the cosmos. Our sun, or solar system, or galaxy, or cluster, or super cluster; all tiny in the scope of the universe.

Quarks and gluons theoretically make up protons and neutrons and electrons.

Theoretically they flicker in and out of existance, so small is their size.

Human lives, animal lives, the lives of stars even, events gargantuan to us, are so ludicrously unimportant in the amount of cause and effect in the universe at any given point, that they flicker in and out of existance.

I mean to state this plainly.

If our lives our negligable in size, so are our causes and effects.

So are our lives.

We have no purpose here on earth. There is no grand scheme.

All that is left is what we have control of.

Our actions, our lives.

Take them into your hands.

Put it this way. Its quite impossible to royally fuck up.